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I seek the stars above worlds to be the guides

[ Shiro’s been dancing around it for a while now. At first he’d thought it was just Keith being Keith, ferociously protective of the people he cares about because he’s lost too many of the few he’s had. But being the focus of all that attention from someone like Keith – well, it’d get to anyone. Shiro’s embarrassed at first, tries to write it off as a reaction to being touched with care after so long with physical contact as a thing to fear. Eventually he can’t deny that he’s attracted to Keith, both physically and in a deep admiration that slots in neatly alongside all the pride and affection he’d felt for the cadet he’d known before the Kerberos mission. But it’s fine; it’s not like he’s never been attracted to someone before, and there’s so much to do it’s easy to channel all his energy into it as a distraction.

It’s harder once he realizes that what Keith feels for him isn’t just dedication to an old friend. He catches Keith watching him with an intensity that makes his chest feel warm and tight, and sometimes when he puts a hand on Keith’s shoulder the younger man leans in to it like a cat getting an ear-scritch. They clasp hands and Shiro pulls Keith in to a hug, and Keith tucks his face against Shiro’s shoulder like it’s the place he feels safest. Shiro falls asleep in the lounge, just once after they’ve sunk a solid week into liberating another territory, and in the warm dim place between sleep and wake he feels Keith press a soft, dry kiss to his temple. And Shiro thinks, okay, that’s something they need to talk about, but it seems like every day there’s a new crisis and he puts it off, puts it off and puts it off, because the universe depends on them now and rushing into this risks upsetting the balance of the team in a way they can’t afford.

He wants to do this right. He wants to have a conversation, make sure that no matter what happens it doesn’t jeopardise their friendship – or jeopardise the team, which puts the whole universe at risk. He wants to talk it out and make sure they’re careful.

What he does instead is find himself brimming over with it, full to overflowing, until one day when they’re unwinding after a sparring match he just gives in, slips a hand against Keith’s cheek and leans in to kiss him. There’s a heartbeat and then Keith is kissing him back, warm and so alive -
And then the alarm sounds and Coran’s voice rings throughout the castle, informing them that there’s an emergency and the paladins need to get to their Lions now.

Helping a rebel ship being chased by Galra fighters leads to following them back to a base, which in turn leads to a protracted battle planetside, and the faintest hint of Black growling at him in the back of his mind every time his thoughts wander to Keith and the press of his lips, the slick promise of his tongue. It’s days before the fighting stops, close to a week, and even Lance’s enthusiasm over winning a battle hard-fought is reduced to a “yay us, see you in a week when I wake up” as they all head for their rooms. Sleep is something they’ve only had in snatches, stolen moments when things died down enough for the ground forces to hold the situation for a while, and by rights Shiro should be unconscious as soon as his head hits the pillow. Instead he’s restless, fidgeting in his bed, feeling like he can’t even close his eyes. A warm shower doesn’t really help, other than meaning at least now he’s restless and clean.

The only thing to do is face it head-on, then. He’s only in sweats and a tank top as he pads barefoot to Keith’s room, and he tells himself it’s because Keith will already be asleep and Shiro’s going to check and then head right back to bed, certain that there’s nothing he can do for now and maybe catch enough sleep to have this conversation alert and sensible tomorrow. At least, he thinks, he can say he tried.
He knocks. ]

Keith?

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[ Just the feeling of Keith tracing his hands over the sensitive skin of his thighs is enough to make Shiro sigh and hum in pleasure. There's something magical in watching Keith do this, mapping Shiro out the way Shiro plans to learn Keith's body as soon as he gets the chance. It feels wonderful, and somehow raw and vulnerable in a way that means Shiro moans helplessly when Keith mouths at him through cloth, and again at the touch of his tongue over bare skin. ]

More than okay. God, Keith. You're gonna kill me.

[ He threads a hand into Keith's hair, regretting just a little that it's still shower-damp. He'd love to run his fingers through it, feel the fine black silk of it slipping against his skin. As it is, he just burrows deep until he feels the heat of Keith's scalp, his fingers slow and petting. ]

[ it's so earnest that it makes keith laugh, his breath a warm puff against shiro's skin. ]

At least stay alive for a little while longer, okay? I don't want that kind of reputation.

[ killer blowjobs? lance would never let him hear the end of it.

but... since shiro seems like he's in remarkable good health for a man in danger of being killed at any moment, keith decides that he's probably safe to continue. so he wraps a hand around the base of shiro's dick and leans in, lapping again at the head of shiro's dick before he takes it in his mouth.

he gets... the basics of what he's supposed to do here, but the finer points are a mystery. luckily, he isn't a stranger to learning by doing, and his teachers at the garrison always applauded him for being a quick study. so he focuses his efforts at the head of shiro's cock first, suckling firmly. ]

I wouldn't miss this for the world.

[ Maybe not sexy, but honest. The sight of Keith looking at his dick with a kind of calculated contemplation before putting it in his mouth is more than enough to kill a man, but it instantly feels so incredible that if Shiro does die right here he'll be doomed to be a ghost, haunting Keith with the unfinished business of his orgasm.

Even the way Keith's so matter of fact about it is hot. He laughs, talks back, and then just goes and pops it right in, sucking in a way that makes Shiro clench his hand in the bedsheets and fight back an immediate jerk of his hips. ]

Fuck.

[ It's slightly strangled, and followed by a breathy sort of laugh. He really is out of practice. ]

Damn, that's good.

[ oh.

shiro doesn't press up into his mouth, but keith is close enough to feel the flex of his stomach as he fights the urge, and... he's almost startled by the idea that he wants him to. wonders what it would be like to let shiro fuck his mouth in earnest, whether he could take him all the way into the back of his throat.

if you'd asked him before, keith would have probably said that this whole blowjob thing was a one-sided effort to make the other person feel good, but now? there's something hot about it that he wasn't expecting, and the idea of letting shiro use him like that only adds to the effect.

still, he's smart enough to realize that it might be a little much for his first time at bat, so the mental image gets filed away for later. the task at hand is more than enough -- he likes the weight and heat of shiro's cock on his tongue, the salty taste of him, the noises he can get shiro to make. it's good, and his success so far makes him bolder.

which... is why he promptly tries to stuff as much of shiro's cock into his mouth as he can manage, getting about halfway there before his gag reflex decides to ask him what the fuck he thinks he's doing. so he promptly jerks himself back off shiro's dick with a fit of coughing, sitting up a little to get his breath back.

and then: ] ... Sorry.

[ frowning down at shiro's dick like it's a problem he can't figure out how to solve. ] I thought it would be easier.

Here, lemme --

[ watch out, he's attempting to dive right back in there. ]

[ Well, that's a rollercoaster. Keith's mouth is already kind of mindblowing by virtue of being a) Keith's mouth and b) on Shiro's dick, and then he goes and shoves right down and for a good second there it's the single hottest thing Shiro's ever seen in his life (just edging out the "Keith drops his towel with an expression full of intent" of five minutes ago). But then he reaches him limit and chokes, which is fine, happens to the best of us, except that he apologizes. Shiro pets at his hair again, murmurs a quiet easy there, buddy. and then Keith says what should be a big clue.

Here's the thing: Shiro's big. He knows he's big, by comparison and having been told (including a "whoa, so I guess it's not true about Asian guys!" that caused a really unpleasant moment as the part of his brain that wasn't fully engaged in powering his dick supplied "yo, that's racist"). It's... not the first time he's heard something along those lines. So all he does is shift his hand to Keith's cheek and brush his thumb gently over the rise of his cheekbone. ]

Hey. Don't force it, you were doing great.

[ shiro praises him for what amounted to little more than keith attempting to swan dive down into his lap and nearly choking himself to death in the process, and... well. keith doesn't really feel like he deserves it, but he can't help but soak it up anyway. leaning into that hand to his cheek like he's touch-starved, turning just a little into the other man's palm. ]

I want to make you feel good.

[ and it's frustrating that this doesn't come as naturally to him as piloting, especially when shiro is someone who deserves the best. ]

[ Shiro laughs. This is a bad move, he knows, because of anyone he knows the only person who has a worse reaction to being laughed at is maybe Lance, but honestly. ]

I mean...

[ It's crass, but he reaches down and waggles his own dick. Rock hard, see? Feeling good isn't in question. ]

How about you get up here and we make each other feel good?

[ the laugh is enough to make keith's eyes snap open, expression already reshaping itself into something that's the keith kogane version of a pout, but --

well. then shiro dick wiggles at him, and that's distracting for a multitude of reasons.

besides! inexperienced or no, he's pretty sure what that offer means. and keith seizes on it without hesitation, lunging forward to clamber right into shiro's lap again, stealing the chance to press another breathlessly eager kiss to the older man's mouth as he settles himself. then he reaches back and wraps his fingers around shiro's dick, already starting to try to lean his weight back and rock his hips down -- ]

[ Keith scrambles into his lap and kisses him and oh man that's good, but then - ]

Whoa, whoa. Slow it down a little, huh?

[ It's probably a good thing that Shiro shifts his own hands to under Keith's ass to hold him up, because there's a moment there where his backward press nearly takes and even the lingering traces of his spit on Shiro's dick isn't quite enough to not make it feel terrifyingly like it's about to bend at the resistance. Which, honestly, would be a better outcome than slipping in dry and unprepared, but -

unprepared. Completely unprepared. Gears turn, the penny drops, and Shiro pauses a moment and fixes Keith with a gentle but suspicious Look. ]

Keith, have you... done this before?

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[ keith has about a split second to panic, because it doesn't seem like shiro is sliding up into him as easily as keith had imagined, and what if that means --

and then shiro's hands are under him, holding him up, and shiro is saying his name in a tone of voice that immediately has keith trying to gauge his expression. if it were anyone else, the question would probably be met with an instant rebuttal. not because keith is particularly ashamed of his inexperience, but because there's a certain vulnerability in admitting that he has no idea what the hell he's doing.

... but lying to shiro is never really a thing, so. ] No.

[ still watching shiro carefully, his own expression closed off. almost like he's expecting this to be some sort of dealbreaker, just waiting for shiro to call the whole thing off. ] ... but it's not a big deal.

[ Shiro might argue that point, but there's a special little slice of disdain in his heart for people who make other people feel stupid when they could have been kind instead, and frankly Shiro would rather let Keith snap his dick than lord anything over him. And anyway, he remembers being new and awkward, worried that his inexperience would give him away and somehow suddenly make him unsexily unfuckable. So he bites back the urge to say something like why didn't you tell me or we can wait if you want and nods instead, using his hands to settle Keith in his lap (but pointedly not on his dick) and leans in to peck a kiss on his mouth. ]

Well, it'll be a big deal to me if I hurt you. I want this to be good for you whether it's your first time or your thousandth. If we're gonna do this, I need you to trust me to get you ready, and I need to be able to trust you to tell me if anything hurts or feels weird or you want me to stop. For any reason. Okay?

[ it's not the rejection keith had been afraid of, and he lets out the breath he didn't realize he'd been holding in response. he likes the way shiro talks about it -- like it's a team effort between the two of them, like shiro trusts him. so he nods without any further protest, although... ]

I'm ready now. [ how much more ready is he supposed to be? need is an ache that sits low in the pit of his belly, and just the feeling of shiro's dick pressing up against the back of his thighs is enough to make that desire sharpen. so he reaches up to pull shiro towards him for another kiss, as if the heat there can somehow convince him. and then, against his mouth: ] I want you.

[ I want you, Keith says, and Shiro feels it. Hell, Keith probably feels it, given the way it makes Shiro's dick twitch. He licks out over the swell of Keith's lip, and it does nothing to hide his little moan. ]

God, Keith. I want you too. Just trust me, alright? And tell me if you don't like it. Not everybody does, but it doesn't mean we have to stop. We can just switch.

[ He could tap out for a second, give a little sex ed lecture. He could ask Keith if he's ever touched himself there. What he does instead is take control, hoping Keith will go with it. Shiro lifts him, standing in one smooth movement that is just a little bit of showing off, and lowers Keith to the bed, moving quickly over him to make space for himself between the younger man's thighs. A kiss, then, as he rolls his hips against Keith's just for the pleasure of the friction -

and then he scoots down, lifts Keith's hips with his hands and sets about eating him out with a fervor he hopes is going to be enough to delay any complaints. ]

[ ah. well.

no matter how the rest of this goes down, keith is pretty sure that the sound of shiro's voice going rough around god, keith is going to haunt him for the rest of his days. just the sound of his own name coming out of shiro's mouth might be dangerous from now on; maybe he should go ahead and start insisting that shiro start calling him by his last name in public, because --

and then the thought is abruptly cut off when shiro lifts him like keith is nothing, and keith is too distracted by the way his stomach does a little flipflop of arousal to question the change in their positions. not that he plans on complaining, not really, because shiro is settled between his thighs, kissing him and then rocking up against him in a way that makes keith moan.

... it's the next bit keith doesn't really get, but he doesn't have an opportunity to do much more than blink in confusion before shiro leans in and does something with his mouth that makes keith's brain short out. he arches up in shiro's hold with a strangled little cry, thighs twitching with little electric shocks of sensation. his heels dig and slide against the sheets as he tries instinctively to find some kind of footing, unable to really press himself down against shiro's mouth the way his body wants him to. ]

[ The way Keith moves and the sound he makes are... encouraging, to say the least. That cry pulses through him, sending out a little flare of need, and Shiro moans against Keith's skin in both encouragement and want.

This is what he's wanted, what he's fantasized about. Not necessarily the act itself (although it's certainly featured) but Keith like this, reacting to Shiro's touch in a way that makes it seem like he's coming undone. Shiro notes the way Keith's feet are slipping against the sheets, and in a moment of sheer altruism he takes one in his hand and places it on his shoulder. It serves a dual purpose - not only will it give Keith some of the leverage he might have been seeking, but it gives Shiro better access to press his tongue wetly inward in an effort to draw out more of those sounds. ]

[ shiro moans against him, and keith's voice breaks around another needy noise in response. just the thought that shiro might actually be into doing something like this for keith is such a turn-on that he can hardly process it; keith can't help but wonder if shiro has pictured doing this before, has touched himself to some mental recreation of what they're playing out right now. it makes his head spin, heat sizzling down his spine and making the heat at the pit of his belly tighten and coil. ]

Shiro -- [ reaching down to clutch at the back of the other man's head, fingers unable to find something to grip along the velvety buzz of his undercut. trying to pull shiro closer at the same time he rocks himself down, almost desperately greedy. ]

[ There's something dizzying about this, having what he'd wanted for so long. All his vague dreamlike fantasies brought into sharp reality and Keith moaning wantonly above him, saying his name like that. Shiro tries to reply, but the needy Keith is something wet and muffled because he doesn't bother pulling his mouth away. He can't, not when he can feel the glorious contradictory sensation of the tension in Keith's muscles and the way he softens under his tongue, inviting more.

Even the scrabbling against his head feels good, Keith's fingers over his hair where it's short enough to push through to scalp. But that's not what Keith is reaching for, he can tell, and so Shiro reaches up to sweep back the longer hair of his forelock and guides Keith's hand to it. Let him tug on it, let him pull. Let him take what he needs until Shiro feels like he's going to burn with the force of their want. ]

[ it only takes keith a second or two to catch onto what shiro is prompting him to do, and the thought that shiro wants him to pull sends another wave of desire pulsing through him. and the next time shiro curls his tongue inwards and makes keith's nerve endings spark with another burst of pleasure, he gives into the urge to curl his fingers in the strands of shiro's hair and tug.

-- but it's still not enough.

shiro's mouth on him is great, but there's still a bone-deep want that pulses at keith's core. he wants more, wants shiro inside him, filling him, making them as close as two people can ever really be. and now that keith is allowed to want it, to ask for it, he's almost desperately greedy for it -- it's a need that sits at the pit of his belly like an ache, something unfulfilled and needy. ]

Shiro -- [ urgent, rocking his hips down against the tongue in him with a little whine. ] I want -- It's not --

[ The sensation of Keith pulling his hair is electric, making him moan again against the tight furl of skin, but the I want is enough for Shiro to whip his head up almost fast enough to get dizzy. His chin is wet with his own saliva, and it stays that way for a long moment as he looks up at Keith with eyes blown dark in desire before he thinks to wipe it off. ]

Fuck you're hot.

[ He wants to be closer. Moves back up the line of Keith's body to bury a kiss against his neck as he reaches for the lube and slicks his fingers, messy with haste. But the slow press of his first finger into Keith is far slower, much more cautious as he licks a slow line against Keith's throat. ]

[ there's a long moment where shiro just looks at him, and keith has just enough time to wonder if he did something wrong --

-- but then comes that, and any doubt is washed away by a fresh flood of heat in his system. being wanted by shiro is still something new and thrilling, and keith revels in the feel of it, lets himself preen at the desire in the other man's eyes.

the closeness is good, shiro hot and solid and safe above him, and keith reaches up to twine himself around shiro because he can't help the need to be closer. especially when shiro presses that first slick finger into him, and it feels strange and different but good in a way that makes the heat in his belly ripple and twist. he rocks himself down against shiro's hand with a low noise of want, pressing hot little open-mouthed kisses along one of the other man's broad shoulders. ]

Want you inside me, Shiro. Thought about it so much, the way you're gonna feel -- [ just the thought of it makes his dick throb, and he nips impatiently at shiro's collarbone to get the point across. ]

[ Keith rocks down onto him and Shiro moans. He'd been going to ask if it was okay, but that answers all his questions. He laughs softly, drops a kiss at the soft skin below Keith's ear and nuzzles against him. ]

Me too. I think about you all the time. It's coming, I promise. We don't have to rush.

[ Which would probably have more impact if he wasn't already rubbing a second finger against Keith's rim, pressing it in with the first as soon as he's sure it'll go without pain. Keith's just so - Keith, full speed ahead, and it's that which makes Shiro's desire spike and flutter almost as much as the promis in the feel of him around Shiro's fingers, hot and tight and inviting.]

[ shiro moans, and keith decides that there's no way he can live without hearing that sound at least once a day for the rest of his life. so yeah, while the reassurance that they don't have to rush is a lovely sentiment, it's hard to really appreciate it when all keith wants is to get shiro's dick in him, stat.

but then shiro eases another finger into him in a slow slide, and the feeling of it makes him drop his head back with a low groan. he can feel the stretch, but even that's good -- it sharpens the pleasure, brings it that much more into focus. then again, it's impossible to think that anything shiro does to him (does with him) could ever be anything but good, so. ]

God, Keith.

[ Like this, it's hard to remember that Keith told him so recently he'd never done this before. The way he looks, the sounds he's making, it's hard to imagine that it's not calculated - that it's just Keith, not some performance expertly cooked up to cater to all of Shiro's deepest fantasies. He scissors his fingers slowly, feeling him out and pressing his hips against the smooth line of Keith's body for just a little friction, trying to take the edge off. ]

Still okay?

[ He crooks his fingers carefully, stroking, trying to make it as good for Keith as he wants it to be. ]

[ shiro spreads his fingers in him, and keith's breath hitches up in a little gasp in response. there's still no real pain, not when shiro is going this slow -- but the stretch is just a promise of what's to come, and it makes him burn all over again. especially when shiro rocks up against him, dick hard and hot against keith's skin, and fuck. it's hard not to want it now, but he promised that he'd be patient and let shiro get him ready, and the last thing in the universe keith wants is to let shiro down. ]

It's --

[ but then shiro hooks his fingers just so, and touches something inside keith that sets off fireworks inside him.

he arches up with a strangled little shout, pressing a hand to the back of his mouth in a mindless effort to stifle the sound. already, he's trying to rock his hips down greedily into shiro's hand, trying to find that again, trying to -- ]

Shiro -- [ it comes out as a whine, and keith is too distracted to be embarrassed by it. ]

Bingo.

[ He's insufferably proud of himself, smirking at Keith's reaction. Keith shifts his hips down, clearly seeking that touch out again, and so Shiro gives it to him, circling his fingers there with care. He's enjoying this - taking his time, watching Keith, drinking in the sounds he makes and the movement of his body - but he'd be a liar if he said all of that wasn't making him impossibly harder, so much that it aches. ]

I used to touch myself here and think about you. All the things I want to do to you, all the things I want you to do to me. Didn't even have to touch my dick to get off.

You're even hotter than I imagined.

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