Zack Fair (![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
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fourstrings2023-02-17 01:21 pm
exsurgo) wrote in fourstrings2023-02-17 01:21 pm
to walk a fine line and work against you
Hey, I wanna talk to you about something.
[ Maybe it’s not the time? It feels so nice right now. They’re just sitting together on the couch, the line of Cloud’s (clothed!) thigh warm against Zack’s. Closer than they need to be for the game they’re playing, but they’re always like that now. Whenever they’re alone together they end up tangling close, even if they’re not doing anything. It makes sense; Zack can’t really touch Cloud when they’re out around HQ or on missions beyond ruffling his hair, slapping him a high-five or occasionally slinging an arm around him in a side-hug kind of squeeze, so it’s normal to want to get of much of it as possible when he can! But that’s why he’s thinking about it, really.
It's the first time he’s ever felt part of his SOLDIER training took something away from him rather than giving. They all go through pretty extensive training once they get into the upper ranks – SOLDIER, the Turks, probably management too because you can’t have somebody giving away business secrets because they’re horny. They’re all on suppressants anyway, but there have been ways around that for as long as there have been suppressants, so part of his SOLDIER experience has been rigorous training to make him basically immune to being forced into rut by the presence of omega pheromones. He’s never regretted it – being forced there isn’t a very nice feeling, when you get down to it – but now he kinda wonders. He’s so crazy for Cloud anyway that it might be nice to just be taken over by it. It’s supposed to be incredible when it’s right – finding the right mate, bonding, all that stuff. He’d feel a lot worse about it if Cloud wasn’t with Shinra too, ‘cause once he makes SOLDIER he’s gonna have to go through all the same stuff and at least it’s not like he’ll be missing out just because of Zack, but it’s still a little sad to think of this one thing they won’t have.
There’s also the part where they haven’t really… talked about it. Cloud’s an omega for sure – he’s never been in heat around Zack (he’s probably on those Shinra suppressants, a rare occasion where they dole out the best stuff to the infantry too because a poorly-timed heat sneaking through or the side effects of cheaper stuff would mean more time when they couldn’t work) but Zack can tell. It’s something that’s just kind of there about him, like the fact that he’s got blue eyes or blond hair. Or maybe it’s closer to say it’s like how he’s on the short side, or has a little scatter of freckles – things about himself that Cloud probably isn’t too pumped about but that Zack thinks are just right. It’s in the way his lashes shade his eyes, the way he moves, the way the cheapo soap and shampoo and laundry detergent they dole out somehow smells good on him. But it’s never come up, and that’s why Zack feels like he needs to say something now, before it comes up by itself. If they never talk about it and then Cloud goes into heat and Zack's reaction is that's rough, buddy, let me get you a cold drink, it's way too easy to imagine all the hormones making him take it personally. So yeah, it sucks, and maybe it'll ruin the nice cosy time they're having, but better now than when Cloud needs what Zack can't give him. ]
You know I’m an Alpha, right?
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[ Maybe it's too much to say, but Zack Fair is not an expert on matters of Enough, so he adds: ]
I got a little sad about it when I thought it meant I could never share it with you, but if it's not something you need then who cares? Not me.
[ It's kinda nice! It means that anything they do is just because of them, because of how much they like each other. Not because biology told them they had to. That's special, and he finishes the thought by leaning over to plant a big ol' kiss on Cloud's cheek. ]
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besides! if zack is sure, then cloud is sure! they can just skip the whole dumb thing about heats and ruts and just be them, and that's gotta be way better, right?
and yeah, sure, it makes a little spot inside cloud go all warm to think that zack likes him even without any dumb biological sway to tip things in his favor. zack was interested just because of cloud, and he wants to keep on sticking around for the same reason. and that's... really, really cool.
so he tips himself over until he can lean into zack's side, smiling up at him. ] Me neither. Makes us a good team, right?
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[ Man, he could have planned this conversation better, but it's good to have it all out there. It could have been a disaster, but instead they've figured out that they're even more perfect for each other than they realized! Cloud leans in close and Zack curls an arm around him, warm and grateful, and ducks his head to press a little kiss to that sweet smile on his mouth. ]
Hey, is there a way to say "thanks for being you" that sounds like a cool and sexy thing that would impress a guy I like?
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[ pretending to give the matter some very serious thought, even as he tips up again to steal another little kiss off zack's mouth. ] Maybe if you put it on a cake or something?
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[ Pulling out his phs mostly as a joke - but if Cloud answers, he's toally getting a cake. That just makes the joke funnier. ]
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[ bumping his hip into zack's and attempting the Sexy Eyebrow Thing before he collapses into giggling. ]
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Can do. I'm sure I've got a sharpie somewhere!