fourstrings | Good god, let me give you my life

Good god, let me give you my life

[ Some people in this situation might worry that it was too much.

Zack is worried that it’s not enough.

Okay, yes, he got Cloud off duty for the day, and had him stay over so he could wake him up with a birthday blowjob. But the gifts he got are almost all practical things; some boots and jeans to replace the very well-worn ones that Cloud wears when he’s in civvies ‘cause he seems to think of any money that he spends on himself as money he’s taking from his mother, and some actual uniform boots too because even though Shinra supplies them, Cloud’s still in the infantry, where they don’t seem to have heard of sizes and a march is much easier when your boots fit. There’s a little detour on the way out, too; Zack knows where Sephiroth is working for the day, and he may not be the guy’s biggest fan but he at least knows he’s not rude enough to decline to wish Cloud a happy birthday when Zack announces the occasion to him. It’s totally worth it for the look on Cloud’s face.

Dinner is a picnic – not one he made, for both their sakes, but bought and taken to Aerith’s church where they can cozy up together without worry of being seen. She’s gonna clear out for the evening, but she does make an appearance to bring a cake her mother made and ask Cloud how he likes the flowers Zack presented him with, and when she kisses him on the cheek he flushes so pink so fast that Zack could almost be jealous.

And when they head back, there’s the poster. Zack had claimed to forget his wallet so in could duck back into the apartment and put it up so it’d be a surprise when they got back. It’s Cloud’s old one, the one he’d tried to hide when Zack first talked him into moving in, and Sephiroth had definitely been stifling a laugh when he signed - no, no need to make it out to me, just sign your name, man!. Embarrassing as that was, he’s still excited enough that he basically hustles Cloud over so it’s in view. ]

Ta-da!

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[ it's good. watching the way zack reacts, the sounds he makes, knowing it's all because he makes zack feel good. and sure, taking your time is nice, but it's also impossible to resist getting all that he can from zack -- cloud can't help the urge to let go of the other boy's dick to tug his pants a little further down his hips, finally getting access to his cock without all that fabric in the way.

and then he goes right back to what he was doing, wrapping his fingers around zack with a pleased little hum and finding a slow rhythm of stroking again. there's already a little bit of precome beading at the tip; he smears his thumb through it as he rubs a little circle over the head. ]

Me too. Can't imagine wanting anyone else like this. You're so hot.

[ There's something about laying here with his pants tugged down like that, enough to restrict his movement a little, that he likes. Not in a "ooh I'm immobile, you can do whatever you want to me" kind of way - though that might be something to think about for later. It's just... trust, maybe. Realistically speaking he could probably throw Cloud halfway across the room if he needed to get away from him, but he's both turned on and warmed through by the fact that he knows he'd never need to; the thought that Cloud has him at a little bit of a disadvantage here, but all he's choosing to do with that is make him feel good. It's a sweet feeling, thick and golden as honey, and Zack runs his fingers through Cloud's hair, cups a hand at his cheek. ]

Feels so good. You're always so good. Shouldn't I be doing this for you, birthday boy?

[ is it weird to think that someone's dick is hot? because it's hard for cloud to deny that zack's is -- he likes the weight and the heat of it in his palm, likes the way he can feel zack's pulse throbbing through it when he wraps his fingers around it, likes the velvety texture of the skin. as far as dicks go? it's a really nice one. ]

I like this. [ leaning into that hand on his cheek, almost like a cat encouraging a petting. ] Making you feel good.

[ giving him a little squeeze for emphasis. ]

I - aah - [ at that squeeze, because Zack absolutely wasn't kidding when he said Cloud is good at this ] - can't complain about that. So long as you let me do something nice for you too, got it?

[ He's trying to sound stern. He doesn't, but to be fair to him that's a hard thing to pull off when the best-looking dude you've ever met has a hand on your dick and is using it to slowly turn you into a warm puddle of pleasure, and to make matters even better? He loves you back. ]

You're gonna. [ and he's trying to sound Confident about it, but it mostly just comes out sounding shy. but that doesn't stop him from forging boldly ahead with it, licking his lips before he continues. ] I want -- I want you inside me.

[ embarrassing. but just the thought of it is enough to make the heat pool at the pit of his belly, something molten and alive. it makes his next breath come out with a little shudder, his own dick giving a little twitch against the constraint of his jeans. ] You're gonna do that for me, right?

Oh. Oh, fuck. Yeah, Cloud. Yeah, I can - I wanna do that. I'm gonna do that.

[ And he's been trying to behave himself, but the hot shock of hearing Cloud say that makes his dick feel suddenly extra-sensitive - he's pretty sure Cloud will have felt it twitch in his fingers at the suggestion - so he reaches down to gently move Cloud's hand away and pull him up into a kiss, needy and hungry. ]

[ now there's a good reaction!

cloud actually makes a little noise of protest as zack tugs his hands away from his dick, but it's quickly swallowed up by the kiss that follows. hot and greedy, the kind that leaves him breathless and makes him feel like zack wants to devour him. it's good. and it draws a low moan out of him, one hand coming to clutch almost reflexively at zack's shoulder like there's some risk of being swept away otherwise.

and when the kiss finally breaks? he's dazed and dizzy, taking a few blinks before he can come back to himself properly.

of course, the only thing that comes out is: ] Now?

[ almost more of a demand than a question. ]

Yeah. Oh, wow.

[ And he laughs. It's half-giddy, a little bit nervous, but mostly? Mostly it's just joy. Yeah, it's amazing, and he's been thinking about this for a long time, but it's also just... so good that it can happen like this. Just... easy, trusting. And he kisses Cloud again, cupping his face in both hands, before he kicks his way out of his pants and starts working Cloud's jeans free, unable to keep himself from pressing little kisses wherever he can reach as he does. Then, when they're (finally!) both nude, he pauses just to look at Cloud, his smile soft and adoring. ]

Hey. I love you.

[ This time it is a declaration. ]

[ he's more than happy to let zack peel him out of his jeans this time; he's hard enough that the constraints of fabric were getting more than a little uncomfortable. besides! who can resist anything when it comes with an avalanche of little kisses? and cloud finds himself huffing a little laugh just because of the warm enthusiasm he can feel behind each one; he loves the way zack can say just how much he loves cloud without having to say anything at all.

then again? when he does say it? also pretty great. ]

I love you, too. [ relishing in all the perfect newness of being able to say it and have it said. he leans forward to steal another kiss off the older boy's mouth, soft and sweet and hoping to convey all that feeling back to him. ]

[ Man, they really are perfect together. Zack can't help grinning at it, proud. He can feel all the warmth and affection in that kiss, relishes it, and it's almost enough to make him want to linger over that for hours.

The though of what Cloud asked for is enough to want to keep him moving, however. He moves down, trailing those kisses further down Cloud's body, pausing to swirl his tongue around one of Cloud's nipples before he shifts to settle himself between Cloud's legs. ]

Can I - I wanna use my mouth. I want to eat you out. Can I?

[ and cloud is more than happy to settle himself back as zack works his way lower, trusting and secure. sure, the end goal is new territory -- but zack always seems to know exactly what to do, knows how to make everything feel good. so cloud is happy to let him take the lead here, sucking in a sharp breath as zack's mouth finds a nipple and teases it into hardness.

... but! that!! is something he's never really even considered!!

and he flusters for a second, the heat jumping up into his cheeks all over again as his mouth falls open into a startled little o. it's... not that it's a bad thought! no, the idea of zack's mouth on him there is enough to send little eddies of heat through his blood, but. ]

I -- That -- [ shyly, almost disbelieving. ] ... you really want to?

I really want to. I've thought about it. The kinds of noises you'd make. How long I could do it before you were begging me for more.

[ He pauses, trails his touch up the inside of Cloud's thigh, not touching him anywhere it really counts but high enough to show intent. ]

I think about you all the time. Every second we're not together, I'm thinking about you. Where I want to touch you, where I want you to touch me. How I can make you feel good.

[ oh. that's -- that's really hot.

and cloud sucks in a sharp breath as zack skates that touch up his thigh -- it's not much, but he's so amped up on anticipation that everything makes his whole system light up. what else has zack thought about doing to him? what has he thought about cloud doing? he wants to hear it, wants to hear everything --

but zack has also suggested a much better use for his mouth, and cloud can't deny how much he wants that. ]

Y-Yeah, me too. I -- [ he can't resist the urge to dip forward for another kiss, scraping his teeth lightly along zack's lower lip. ] I want you to -- I -- I want you to e-eat me out.

Oh, fuck. It's even hotter when you say it.

[ Too hot for Zack to wait any longer. He settles between Cloud's legs, presses a kiss to the inside of his thigh, and then settles it over his shoulder so he can lean in and curl his tongue wetly against the tight furl of skin there. It's almost unreal, after so long spent thinking about it. It's silken and warm against his tongue, and he repeats the motion immediately. ]

[ listen, he trusts zack absolutely! but this is very new territory, so there's still a part of him that's tensed as zack settles between his legs. what if he does something embarrassing! what if zack thinks he tastes gross! what if --

and then zack dips closer and drags his tongue up and over him, and all of those thoughts promptly sizzle out of existence. cloud gasps at the way it feels, reaching down instinctively to tangle his fingers in the older boy's hair as his hips buck up towards zack's mouth. and the second swipe gets a moan out of him, even if he bites down on the inside of his cheek to try and stifle it. ]

Z-Zack, oh, wow -- Th-That's --

[ Perfect, it's perfect. That's exactly how Zack hoped Cloud would react, gasping and clutching at his hair and rocking up to meet him, and Zack can feel his dick throb against the bedding but that isn't nearly as important as doing it again. And since Cloud seems to be enjoying it Zack doesn't need to feel shy about it, right? So he uses one hand to pull gently until he has better access, so he can suckle at the tight rim of muscle there. It's thrilling - it feels like there's so much he can do, so many different ways he can try to bring Cloud pleasure like this, and the thought of it makes him moan against Cloud's skin. ]

[ zack spreads him open a little wider and then sucks on a trapped bit of sensitive skin, and the sound it gets out of cloud is nearly a mewl. the very few braincells that are still cooperating with him are all focused on trying not to squirm so much that he knees zack in the ear, but it's impossible to stay still with zack's mouth on him.

the pleasure is an unexpected thing -- entirely different from having zack's mouth on his dick, something that teases and makes him itch for more. he gives into the urge to roll his hips down against zack's mouth, bites down on a low moan as zack's tongue licks another hot swipe over him. ]

[ Oh, that's hot. Cloud makes a little noise that Zack knows he wouldn't make if he was in control, rolls his hips down against Zack, squirms in his grip, and it's all the encouragement Zack needs to push things that little bit further. He swirls his tongue, a wet and curling motion tracing ever-smaller circles, and then presses in. He knows enough to know he'll need to do more to get Cloud ready for what he's asked for anyway - just his horny explorations of his own body have taught him that much - but this? Finally being inside Cloud, in any measure? The thought of it sends heat fizzing through him, and he rocks against the bed, rocks closer to Cloud and presses his tongue as far as he can make it go. ]

[ zack presses his tongue in, and the mix of shock and pleasure and arousal is all one flare of heat at the pit of cloud's stomach. he makes a sharp keening sound that tries to be zack's name, fingers tightening in the other boy's hair and thighs squeezing thoughtlessly around him.

it's good. it satisfies something that his body needs -- but not enough, not nearly. but the wet squirm of zack's tongue inside him is touching all sorts of places that cloud has never explored; places that feel good, that sing for more. he moans again and tries to roll his hips down into the sensation, dick so hard he's leaking a thin trail of precome down its length. ]

Z-Zack -- Th-That feels... oh wow, so good, please --

[ Good. Good. In this moment, nothing else in the world is as important as making Cloud feel good, and Zack takes the tugging at his hair and the squeeze of his thighs as praise just as surely as his words. He can't resist working at Cloud a little longer - drawing back to lick over him again, teasing over his rim before he delves back in - but he can feel the way Cloud moves, desperate and needy, and Zack presses a final wet, sucking kiss against that tender flesh before he lifts his head. ]

You want more? Fingers?

[ the greedy way zack works him over feels like it has his brain melting; it's impossible to focus on anything but zack's mouth on him, how good it makes him feel. his breathing is ragged, skin flushed all the way down his chest --

and when zack finally pulls away to ask him something, cloud whines.

but, no. that was a question, wasn't it? and that means he's supposed to answer, not just struggle to resist the urge to push zack's head back down again. so he swallows hard, licks his lips, tries to process what zack asked him, and --

oh. oh, yeah. that sounds like a pretty reasonable next step. there's a little flicker of nerves at the thought of it -- what if it hurts? what if he doesn't like it? -- but he trusts zack. so he manages a little nod, squirming for a second before spreading his thighs a little wider. invitation. ] Okay.

[ The sound of that whine makes Zack want to get right back to work, and with the pause before Cloud answers he seriously considers it - and then Cloud spreads his thighs like an invitation, and despite the fact that Zack just had his mouth in one of Cloud's most intimate areas, the sight of it makes him moan a sound that's almost a whimper.

Cloud trusts Zack, that much is clear - but Zack trusts Cloud, too. Cloud's said before that he'd let Zack do whatever he wanted, but Zack flatters himself that Cloud knows how much it means to him that they're in this together, both of them into it, every step of the way. So he kisses a line back up Cloud's body, regretting every moment he has to pull away to retrieve the lube, and when he moves back and spills it over his fingers he does it tucked in close against Cloud's body. Wanting to be able to watch his face, read his expressions, but also just wanting to be close. ]

I've got you. I'm gonna take care of you, baby.

[ And he slips his hand down where his mouth had been, tracing a slick finger against him, trying to coax him into relaxing with that circling touch and soft kisses against his neck. ]

[ the sound that zack makes when cloud spreads his legs like that is definitely gratifying, and the way he takes his time to kiss a line up cloud's body gives him a chance to relax some of his tension. sure, this is a new thing -- but they've done new things before, and with zack? it's always been good. so there's no point in being nervous, right?

(always easier said than done, but still.)

he shifts himself a little closer as zack tucks up against his side, leaning up just enough to be able to press a kiss against zack's cheek. ] I trust you.

I want -- [ nuzzling up against his skin, rolling his hips down gently against zack's hand. ] ... I want this. With you.

Yeah?

[ It's good to have the reassurance, to know he's not pressuring Cloud into something he doesn't want, but Zack - being Zack - can't resist the urge to play up to it a little, and even he doesn't know whether it's to help egg Cloud on or just for the fun of it. ]

You want this? You want me inside you, filling you up? Wanna see me just falling apart, until I can't say anything but your name, because there's nothing and nobody in the world I want as much as you?

[ And he starts, slowly, to press that first finger in. A little too much lube, maybe, he can feel the mess it's made of his hand, but better than too little - especially because like this the stark heat of Cloud's body is more obvious, almost a shock, and Zack feels his cock throb in response where it's pressed against Cloud's side. ]

[ oh.

that's a good way to distract him from his nerves about the present -- a reminder of the reward waiting in the immediate future, something good and tangible and entirely achievable. and the idea of making zack feel that good? so good that he comes apart, so good that the only thing he can think of is cloud? it makes his blood heat in his veins, makes his next breath spill out of him in a little moan. ]

Yeah. I want that, Zack. I want you.

[ which is what he keeps in mind as zack starts to press that first finger in, reminds himself to breathe and not tense up instinctively. and honestly? it's not as bad as he might have feared. a little strange, a little uncomfortable, but not bad. it unspools some of the tension in him, lets him relax into what they're doing.

and! just to make it better, he tips his chin up to steal a kiss off zack's mouth. ]

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